Monday, 12 January 2015

Buzzing over a river and saw its reflection...

I wonder how much further in the path of knowledge have people really gone. Imagine that if as i am now, and as i was before i am to progressively understand deeper concepts of my unconscious mind mechanically and consciously, then by all probability there are people out there who are able to visualize my current mental state.  So, I wonder what an intelligent and quick of a mind should be to be able to do that, (without implying i am intelligent now), but on the premises that i have seen progress in me and thus i imply upon a gap between the conscious and unconscious and the ability to summon that mentality to be of use of the individual.

It really is mind blowing, or even better eye opening to see that even the cunning machine that operates us and goals us at all times, the thing that watches from all angles is just but yet another mechanism vulnerable as anything else. It is scary to see how easy to breach our unconscious self is.

Even more interesting though to all of this, is how all of this intelligence can be humbled by tremendously far more simple means of existence. Means of existence which might function in a simpler way but manifest more force. What i am talking about is an ability which tops intellectual capacity and reveals the power to manifest and collect consciousness in a form of not understanding things through analysis, but seeing the bigger picture of yourself operating in a system. Of not seeing the leaf, or the tree or the forest but all together in one picture functioning as an environment all together.

What i would like to honestly add to that after a very recent humbling i have had from a fellow bee(real bee), is that no matter how braggartly we monopolize that concept to our species, it is much possible for consciousness to be existing inherently in different levels to other species too.

Thus the manifestation of consciousnesses if one was to break it down to what it offer to its user one could actually say that it the upgrade of thinking. It overpasses analytically though
and integrates all of the environmental elements into existing patterns providing much quicker output if not insights of possible future happenings at least advantageous reaction abilities  to environmental changes. Ultimately providing with more time for consideration of best choice, or since talking about the practical action of consciousness, understanding the natural path of the next possible choice!

MUHAHAHAHAHA! Take that me of 30 minutes ago!

I.. think this might suit this text. Try re-reading while listening

Also, a very instructive talk which might reference some of my sayings. 

Friday, 9 January 2015

By the fireplace and wondered of Love...

The way humans operate with love is a very strange phenomena.

After an age and experience level i truly believed that it is mostly a biological thing, a paragon which needs to be covered for the better operation of the system.
Yet i always deep down kind of forgot (Probably by unconscious choice)what a profound experience my first love was on me on so many levels aside of biological completeness. The realization that my needs of a person to share life aside from myself on a more than a friendly level, to a level of completeness, to a level of cooperation and understanding.
The mutuality of experiences and merging feelings, all within the borders of individuality in all intellectual sensual and bodily segments is a thing which i believe all humans have a need much greater than they know of. And it takes a long time for each and every of us to understand that, time that never comes back, and in many cases time which destroys most persons ability to achieve this.

I Am Not Talking About the cowering of one from itself.

I am Talking about the Sharing life. On All levels.


So, Where is this?

Where are the boys? And where are the girls, the women the men the Individuals that are to partake in this holy action called love.

Scared? Because we don't have money? Or is it because we don't have something Else? An Else which right now we don't know, but maybe we might find out, or maybe not well, who knows, its not like time passes by us and we are letting life fly away under the premises of finding peace and making infrastructure for our selves.(Not Including those who really do) Probably soon in the next few years or decades we will find it out, by chance. The world will change to this silent wish of ours, simply because it is everybody's. Yes one day i will be walking and i will purely by chance find out the girl who had that wish too, exactly like i, and as i imagined her. And i will be just so happy that all my dreams from all these years were true and i was not mad!Hahahaha! I mean that is until i find out that, that person was not what i dreamed of and she is just another person as ordinary as any of the mindless zombies which i was seeing walking next to me in the road and in the world and Everywhere!. With the difference that she is slightly more compatible with me and chance actually for that time opened up a path to meet her under favorable circumstances and timing. AND Then, I Want You To Prove Me That after that Despair you will not say, FUCK IT. And you will not just plainly wonder Why The HELL DID I NOT MEET HER Earlier! Just because the fact is... That Humans Relationships are not as we want them to be. They are structures that are build. Block by block step by step, and only by giving.

So, Imaginary Me!

I The True Me Commands you to go Out And Find that Other Specimen, and Bring her back to base RIght now for... Ehem.. InspectioN!

"Walks away" (Imaginary me,(( True me is going to stay here and play terraria)))

Some Trance!

Sat on one of the crystal ornaments hanging from our tree and buzzed...

Life is mostly a journey of understanding yourself.

You learn, you experience and you grow inside a long internal walk.

And it goes up and down and turns all around, but its just a trip.

And before you understand that it can be scary as hell...

Buts its just a trip.

Today was a day where when i woke up i felt almighty and powerful and that was for a variety of reasons which were logical and beautiful to me.

All of my body was brimming with energy and i had the kind of feeling you believe that anything can be done given the right time. I had the most joyous morning coffee with my family and went for a walk to the mountain. It was a clear sunny Christmas day, practically more hot than cold, i saw a woodpecker and two squirrels, gathered some cones and flowers and returned home where Xmas dinner preparations were being done.

For me up to here i can say that this is an ideal kind of day.

An hour later minutes before all the guests were to come, we had a call from a close family member (who was supposed to come too) telling us that she was sick and that she wouldn't make it. My father rushed there and took her to the hospital where they diagnosed a kidney problem. The mood dropped and it turned out to be not the best Christmas we've have had.

It can be funny how brittle can our welfare is.

We suppose all of this knowledge can bring us safety and solve all our problems but reality is quite different.

In just a moment all of those positive feelings were suddenly at stake, and there i stood anxious and of no help.

At that point what crossed my mind was how balance and happiness seemed so un-attainable from that point of life. I felt that i was suddenly being dragged away from that light. Really!

After about two hours, all the thoughts i am putting into letters above came again to my mind, not as panacea or analgesics for my "wounded happiness" but as reminders of how things happen, just like they have had for numerous times before. And for that i am thankful.

As i see it now... no matter what you do or who you are, you are just but a cork floating in a sea of possibilities. Its futile to try to control it. So at least try to accept it.



Thoughts inspired by Ram Dass, Bill Hicks.

Friday, 26 December 2014

And one and two and... Go!

Well, Hello everybody

This part of the web is a small closet in which once you open it you might just steal a few glimpses of my mind and maybe more.

I've have always wanted to put a few thoughts out for others to see and to share familiar experiences and thoughts in which we all connect and understand each other.

This blog is an attempt to show (mostly to myself) that people who think as i do are not crazy.(or not)

Because if you are where you are and others reached that point just by following nature their consciousness and freedom. Just by following their self and instincts and love and passion and creation in all of its existence happy or sad... and even at that point where you know you that as far as you can see you really did nothing wrong aside from being yourself, if even there the world around you seems twisted and weird enough for you to believe you are crazy.


If being you makes you believe you are crazy then... i dare not know what doesn't make you so.

So this is an attempt to put all of these thoughts that make me feel crazy all so often out for show, with ass little discretion as possible and shout freely... THAT IS ME


That is not you, that is not what i should be, that is not what you should try to become nor to avoid, this is not even what you should try to understand to take the message and then become better! That is me, a small part of me at least, typed through silliness and immaturity hoping that one day i will wake up and not be crazy, ill wake up and see sense all around.

Wouldn't that be great?

I wish the best to all the people.

AB that C.Well..